E.m.O

Ye, minggu ineh adalah minggu Emo saye *Super-Emo*

Humm, hormon tak stabil as usuals.

1st, pi dentist-got-tat-uncomfortable separators.

2nd, Doctor really sahkan aku ade gigi 'Miracle' tertanam dibwah rahang *2nd time X-ray* dan WAJID dikeluarkan dgn minor surgery ASAP! k. Urgh. aku x suke main bedah2 ni la. Iskk Jarum is my biggest enemy! Dymn. no choice kena buat jugak.fine.*Sighs!*

3rd, Humm ni yg buat my whole week so-so so-SUPER mendung berarak kelabuz. ;( *SOB2!*

Balik umah dgn gigi yg berdenyut dek separators, He told me the Shocking news! aku rase cam nk pengsan je. Seriosly its NOT Funny. i was devastated! heart crushed into million pieces i was SUPER-SUPER_SEBAK! My Brother nak kawen NOOOO!!!! ;(

I know i shouldn't acting like a kid, but its juz come naturally. Time flies & didn't realize my 2nd Bro is growing so fast. He is takin one step ahead in his life soon then i am * that is the kesian part of all!* ;( i am totally LOST when he told me he is settling down by next year. Goshhh... cant accept the truth , am makin fools of myself askin all those stupid questions to him 'kenape awal sgt??' dah kompom dia ke??? dah cukop semua??? this is NOT a trial ok??? bla bla bla & all the shits & unnecessary remarks i gave to him juz to show them am protesting.Silly me.

Hopeless, evting is done by him already. Even he alreadu booked a Hall! @ Bukit Damansara ;( ;( *nak PENGSAN* &&& to make it wrost is--------- he choosed the same fuken date when the 'IDIOTZ' left & ripped my heart apart 4 years back on 13 Feb!!! WHY? WHY???

Yess, its already confirm 13 Feb 2011 my beloved brother will leave me to be with his wifey ;(

urghhh NO! still cannot accept the truth - i was crying like HELL that nite. Cant help it.

kenape kena pilih tarikh tu? tho like my mom said, tarikh tu tak berDOSE 7 semuanye kebetulan aje. Ya i know.. Maybe am being overly EMO & am SUPER SHOCKED that my Bro is really2 serious about this.haishhh

Its not like i dont love him, i want him to be happy on his Big day, i wanna be happy for him & go shoppin together with him buy all the weds stuff. BUT, at the moment i juz dont felt like yet,still blank & blur & am TRYING slowly to accept the truth that ALLAH already set evting for him & me. Glad that his Jodoh already say 'Helo' to him :) humm am prayin & hoping that my emotionally feelin will fade away till the Big day come.Hopefully-hopefully. Amin.

Achot & DeQ Yull :) <3

My Beloved Bodyguard soon gonna be only one left +_+

Alonk LOVE u guys so MUCH!

psttt! To u my dear Brother, dont get me wrong k, i LOVE u so much! knowing that u'll gettin married & whatnot to her is another story. but juz gimme sumtimes to catch my breath & i'll make sure u'll be the Happies person on dat day with ur crazie sista in action! :D.Insyaallah.

*didnt realize tears fallin heavily on my gebu cheeks... Sebak! ;( ;( ;( ;( *