hummmmmmmm

opiz-spital-umah-spital-opiz-

editing+editing+editinggggggggggg!

stressss

sgt susah hati

x de MOOD!

DugaanNYA.

Today ke opiz jam 8am nak edit XPDC Chef Wan- Mauritius EP1 *katenyeeee*
Tapi setat ngeditnye jammm? 2pm! bley? SEBAB? pertame nagntoks berat & syndrom keMALASAN melanda diri seketika :Psungguh tak proaktif occay! * Bad pja! Bad! ;X

Nway, settle edit Ep.1 at about 7pm * Watttt??* humm tu la pasal kalau asik nak mengelat je kan?
padan muke aku.

But b4 that around 5pm dpt SMS frm Mak-"OTW to PPUM, Nenek sakit ni" & aku rase cam kena campak dari banguan 100 tingkat ke bawah! kebomm! jatuh & lumpoh! lembik lutut aku bace SMS tu ;( terkejut & dah tak tentu arah nk buat keje.

Yes, Nenek dah Demam for couple of days-mmg weak but i tot tak la teruk sgt smpai nk pi Emergengy PPUM? ;( am SAD. Totally.

Gagahkan jugak minda & tangan menghabiskan editing *Thankx to Yaya to accompany me tho u mai opiz jam 5.30am nk buat LIVE Tanyalah Ustaz. TQ SO MUCH Dear :) *

Call My 2nd Bro-Achot (He drove her to hospital since i was inda ofiz werkin) -'Nenek ok tak?' He said, 'lom taw lagi, dah 2 kali doktor amik darah & air kencing. Tgh tggu result je.'
hummm...am Super-Worried right now. Seriously ;(

Nenek! Be STRONG k! U'll be juz fine. InsyaALLAH. T_T

am prayin hard that...
Tuhan, jauhkanlah Nenek aku dari segala penyakit berat & malapetaka yang tidak kami ingini, ampunkanlah dosanya & sembuhkanlah dia dari azab penyakitnya. Semoga KAU panjangkanlah umur Nenek aku! dan berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi dugaanMU yang satu ini-Amin.

Nak!

Buat.Mase.Skang.Ini.Saye.Dengan.Rendah.Diri.Disini.Ingin.Mengemukakan.SATU.Permintaan. Kepada.Yang. Baek. Hati. Dan.Sudi.Memakbulkan.Silelah.Makbolkan. Ye??

SAYE.SANGAT.MAHU.MAKAN>INI! :D
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Chocolate Moist Cake!!!!
Pliz? ;(

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..Slurp!

i.Heart.this

malaz.

malaz nk bangun.
malaz nk tgk Tibi.
malaz nk edit.
malaz nk buta skrip.
malaz nk sikap rambut.
malaz nk kuar.
malaz nk reply SMS.
malaz nk jawab fon.
malaz nk makan.
malaz nak cuci keta.
malaz nk bagun dari tempat aku skang ni.
malaz nk bukak mate.
malaz nk bertekak.
malaz nk bagi komen.
malaz nk bersuara.
malaz nk tengok.
malaz nk pegi mane-mane.
semuanye malazlah!
malaz dgn malaz ni!

urghhh.knape aku malaz sgt ni?
Ya Robbi! Tolongla aku buang sang Malaz ni dari aku NOW!
aku terlalu BANYAK tanggungjawab yg belom selesai lagi ni. ;X
Pliz Tuhan ;S

Separuh.

Ni la ghuper aku harini.
Somel kan?

Uwarghhhhhhhhhh..ummm

Oh! Mate tolongla bukak. Aku nk edit hari ni.
Uwarghhhh..zzzZzZzzzz...

My new Shayang!

Been takin various Pills for ages now to keep me sleep tide everynite.
People who close to me knows why. * cant resist!*
Am i addicted? i dowanna put it that way tho. Well am NOT.

Recently, Xanax doesn't works for my anymore bebeh.
Introducing my new Baby Mr. Dormicum 15mg! Voottttt :P
got it frm Doktor yesterday-reason why? humm so many to tell.
So better juz keep it silent mode & layannn ZzzZzZzzzzZzz
Seriously the impact is Kebomz! tido mati.
i can even rasa the 'mamai' feelin till now. *mate stim separuh sepanjang hari* Haishhhh


*People don't call me Pill Slave for nuttin tho*

Sighs~

humm
U, for more than 10 years- i tot i knew everything bout u.
But to my surprise , today i realize that i don't know u at ALL? Really.

ALLAH show me sumthing 2day -a lil' teaser bout who u really are.
Tho its not completely 100% clear, i think its enuff to convince me that I DONT KNOW U actually.
My mind always seeking for the answer thinkin why u've been acting so crazie sumtimes & wuts up with your freakin mental whenever u treated me in such way? 1 second so HOT & the next So dymn freakin COLD??

Oh! GOD, never that i knew u've such a roller coaster super-unpredictable life * and u been hiding all this in silent?* No wonder u never talk about this with me in any of our conversations or am not good enuff to be the best listener? or am not that important in your life? Ooh of coz am not.
*Silly me!*

Humm seriously, am speechless Dear. Suddenly felt so sorry 4 u. I didn't know u've been thru all this drama for ages. Am so confused & so wanna know WHY? When? What happen?


There is so many things i don't know about u.
A lil' sad tho ;( sad-very-sad
coz frankly, I DONT KNOW WHO U ARE??

i.Think...

The Moment you are in Tension
You will lose your Attention
Then you are in total Confusion
And you will feel Irritation
Then you will spoil personal Relation
Ultimately, you won't get Co - Operation
Then you will make things Complication
Then your blood pressure may raise Caution
And you may have to take Medication
Instead, understand the Situation
And try to think about the Solution
Many problems will be solved by Discussion
This will work out better in your Profession
Don't think it's my free Suggestion
It's only for your Prevention
If you understand my Intention
You will never come again to TENSION!

Kakak SUKE!

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt

Is it better? Is it worse?
Are we sitting in reverse?
It's just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but let's go slow
What I don't wanna do is crash, no

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

Now every day ain't gon' be no picnic
Love ain't a walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

I don't know where we're heading I'm willing and ready to go
We've been driving so fast we just need to slow down and just roll

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

Hantu.Beg :)

Harini saye rembat 4 sekaligus! Tas tangan yg sangat menarik dari Shazzy!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Cant Help it laa...
am sooo CRAZIE over Bags!
x kesahla murah ke mahal ke janji santek dek mate aku. Rembat & jalan saje huhu
* Bad habit!huh?*

Now i wanna sleep with all my bags arounsd me bley? hehhehe


p/s: errrr...almari dah tak muat? new wardrobe? erkkk

Chance :P

My New fragrance collections! CHANCE by Chanel. Smells magic! Grab it @ Mauritius Duty Free for ONLY USD$50!!!!!!! wohoooooo its about RM150! huhuhuuu. kalau tak sebab murah mak x beli uolz pluz the smell amazinkkkkk :P

Karatz.Jap.

Jom layan jiwangs-karatz sat! yukkkkkkkkkkk



Aku ini wanita biasa
Bisa sakit luka karena cinta
Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

[chorus1]
Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih hatiku

Kekasih hatiku maafkan aku
Aku wanita biasa

Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

[chorus2]
Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih
Hatiku… maafkan aku..

Read more: http://www.liriklagumuzik.co.cc/2009/07/lirik-aku-wanita-biasa-krisdayanti.html#ixzz0lNgEN45z

Missed Call?

Aritu time aku still kt Mauritius melambaks2 call & missed call aku terima. and of coz aku x jawab KECUALI from my famly. *mahal kotz nk bergayutz kt kepualuan Africa tu haa*

Humm dalam byk2 missed call tu kan, terselit satu nombor yg dah bertahun x call aku ++6012-826#### ;( ;S humm apakah & kenapakah? LAGI? sedikit gusar & risau *dikit aja dong!*

Balik M'sia aku try tgk2 page FB mereka *kecuali-dia coz aku dah delete dia berkurun suda* mane la taw kalau2 ade bende2 yg x diingini terjadi kt dorang * see?! aku baek hati lagi nk care ek? urgh WTR*

Nway, none of the latest status yg mencurigakan. semuanya OK cun saja. Pheww lega. Bukannye ape, takot la kot2 nk bgtau aku yg si * ehem-ehem * da kojol ke? dah kt ICU ke? famly dorang sakit ke or ape2 je la kan? kalau dah ji-un aku bacekan je lah Yassin. ape je lagi aku leh buat? kan?

Tapi tu la, Pelik bin Ajaib? kalau dari mereka2 yg biol mengganggu hidup aku dulu tu aku x amik port sgt de. Ini dari Bundanya? apakah agenda? Wo Pu che taw woooo Malaz nk tanye kenapa or msg or wtr-biar je la kan? terdail agaknye :P ahh tak penting.

Penat.

OK.i get enuff nonsense already fellas and am tired dealing with it.
1st of all, zillionz apologize for wat u hv been facing?
its TOTALLY NOT MY FUKEN FAULT. CLEAR?

I juz couldn't understand Wat da' freakin heck u been acting that way-FOREVER?
its like putting all da' freakin BLAME on me &&& makes me look so freakin BAD.WTF?
Owh Goshhhhh, pls laa am begging U -GROW-UP can ah?

and at da' first place, I DONT ASKED FOR IT. paham?
it juz my freakin LucK! Goddammit.
So, STOP bla-bla-bla around about it.So basi-lah.

am definitely not mad at u but ur' attitude annoyed me &&& its TOO MUCH already dear :)
So, face it & pls get over it k.

Sekian Terima Kaseh.
:)

Nasty?

hahahahhaha :D
i juz wanna laugh out loud rite now thinking wat I've get myself into last nite?
wat am i thinkinglah kan? hu hu hu haiyoooo
it was crazie & funny & definitely a REAL FUN thing actually tho :P
hehehe

Wat I've done?-its not important & not for sharing- he heee :D
But all i can say is- it was a TOTAL NASTY!

OMG? 'U' i would never-ever-ever-ever tot we could be that 'gila!' haishhh



p/s: u r one CRAZIE creature i ever met! really.
aahahahhahahahahahhahahhaa * gelak guling2* :P

aku.mahu.jadi,JUTAWAN!

[Bruno Mars]
I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

[Chorus]
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire

[Travis "Travie" McCoy]
Yeah I would have a show like Oprah
I would be the host of, everyday Christmas
Give Travie a wish list
I’d probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt
And adopt a bunch of babies that ain’t never had sh-t
Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this
And last but not least grant somebody their last wish
Its been a couple months since I’ve single so
You can call me Travie Claus minus the Ho Ho
Get it, hehe, I’d probably visit where Katrina hit
And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did
Yeah can’t forget about me stupid
Everywhere I go Imma have my own theme music


[Chorus]
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire
Oh oooh oh oooh for when I’m a Billionaire
Oh oooh oh oooh for when I’m a Billionaire

[Travis "Travie" McCoy]
I’ll be playing basketball with the President
Dunking on his delegates
Then I’ll compliment him on his political etiquette
Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it
But keep the fives, twentys (?) completely separate
And yeah I’ll be in a whole new tax bracket
We in recession but let me take a crack at it
I’ll probably take whatevers left and just split it up
So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks
And not a single tummy around me would know what hungry was
Eating good sleeping soundly
I know we all have a similar dream
Go in your pocket pull out your wallet
And put it in the air and sing

[Bruno Mars]
I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
[Chorus]
I wanna be a billionaire so frickin bad!

HEAVEN!

am in Heaven!

I was in Paradise for 8 freakin days! Yeah bebeh! am in MAURITIUS! :D Been assigned LAST minute * 2 days b4 aboard to Mauritius* replacing my colleague -Emmytoz- who cant go due to Black-Listed by PTPTN Loan. So, i guess its juz my Luck! Amin-Amin syukur Alhamdulillah! :D

uweeeeeee!

7 colored earth!

am in HEAVEN-lah!

orgasm!

At 1st it was all anxious + worried + Super-Nervous & EXCITED!. Ye la gile tak kan? i wasn't prepare anything for shooting there- research, contact person, shooting schedule , bla bla bla. But Thank GOD evting already put in place by the producer.Phewww! So? get pack-up & am off to Mauritius on 7th April til 14 April baybeh! woohoooooo Reach there i was stunned by all the beautiful scenery & magnificent blue-turquoise Indian Ocean! ahhhh PENGSAN!

Crystal clear water!arghhhhhh!

@ Catamaran Luxury boat to Flat Island-AWESOME!

am in LOVE with MAURITIUS!

Da' Funny + crazie Frank & Nicky From South Africa

Cheersssssss!

It was a TOTAL dream come true! i would NEVER EVER tot i could experienced Mauritius despite of the Expensive travel fare & such, paling2 pon ke Perhentian pon dah cukop bersyukur! * tapi tu pon x sampai2 lagi LOL* :P

So there i was, shooting XPDC Chef Wan for 8 days around Mauritius From South+East+West+North the Island and this is the PRECIOUS Experience i ever had! Being a 'Hantu-Air' or more likely i can say am an Island gal, am not gonna juz stares at the crystal-clear water of Mauritius kan? apalaga? finish all shooting-Gebushhhhh!!! in da' blue water i go!

where da' shark juz now eh? hehe

My Lucky charm! Starfish!

PARADISE!!!!

@ Safari-Teringat kt My Mei-Mei kt umah hehe

Beautiful Sunset! Subahanallah!

uweeeeeeeeee :D I became so LEGAM after nearly 4 hours snorkeling & lepaking by the beaches. ahhhh never rasa so relexing & syiok like this. The breezing weather + cold water + colorful coral & marine creature + the greenish un-touch virgin nature also friendly safari animal & sunny day makes a perfect day in Mauritius! &&& for me the SUPER-BEST! experience was sailing on the Catamaran Luxury Boat to Flat Island! it was AWESOME! Gile best!

Really THANK ALLAH for all this wonderful experience i had :D- Amin

i miss u khaerul Azzam ! ;(

called me crazy when i actually already falling-in-lap! with Abdullah khaerul Azzam!
;S~~~ ahh angau~~ :P hehe

ye ye, saye angau dgn cik Khaerul Azzam mahasiswa Cairo si penjual tempe & Bakso Cinta ini.Amat mengagumi ketabahan & keSABARAN menempuh UJIAN ILAHI dalam pencariannya mencari Jodoh Penyeri hidup ;( dari satu ke satu usahanya merapati suri dihati dilapisi bermacam halangan. Sedikit sebanyak dihati kecil tersentap & terrase juge melihat kisahnye *seperti terkena dibatang idung sendiri Ouch!*

Tapi tulah, kalau dah ditulis TAKDIR CINTA Jodoh kite dgn seseorang tu MEMANG takkan kemana walau seinchi atau sesaat pon awal or lambatnye ianya tetap PASTI! akan terjadi atas kehendaknNYA. Sayu melihat kesungguhan Azzam mencari dari Cairo hingga ke Solo terus mencari rupa2nye sebelah kampung saje suri dihati.haishhhh~ life is such a riddle dont u think so?

Now, aku berserah segalanya padaMU, Moga2 dapat mencari si dia yang seTABAH Fahri dan seSABAR Khaerul Azzam. ade?

TERKEJOT BEROK PLIZ!

masih TERKEJUT BEROK. Namun tetap bersyukur. Memang benar Rezeki ALLAH akan muncul ditempat2 & waktu yg tak disangka2-Amin :)

its complicated.

YOU, Listen...

Now, I don't want to lose you

but I don't want to use you

just to have somebody by my side.

And I don't want to hate you,

I don't want to take you

but I don't want to be the one to cry.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.

Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

I think am losing my soul mate - it HURTS & i HATE it so much! and I know I won't find another because there can only be ONE true soul mate. Its nearly 14 years now :) Tho i HATE U sometimes, deep down inside me-i STILL NEED U BY MY SIDE. But SOON it will be a FULLSTOP.There may be future companions but you only have one soul mate created for you in heaven.

i.Like!

Terbaek!