TQ.4.Dropping by. Fellas!

Tick! Tock!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Sunday.

Oh sunday is a FUNday dorlene!
No Doubt reminds me of my crazie-notty days back in my skooling years :)
Love 'em! <3

Happy Sunday People!

Mish.



I Mish ur HUGS. I Mish to cuddle in ur' arms. I Mish u stares at me all nite long. I Mish all the giggling that drives us crazie.I Mish our argument. I Mish our late nite chatting about anything.I Mish the comfort feeling when u by my side. I Mish crying over ur' shoulder. I Mish doing all the fun thing with u. I Mish all the jokes u make me laugh.I Mish sulking with u. I Mish all the silly thing u did to annoyed me. I Mish ur' nagging. I Mish all of this and Worst of all... I MISH U LOVE so-BADLY.Really.~Sighs~

I Mish U LOVE.

Part?


Sometimes things don’t always work out as planned. Most times, actually. They don’t work out, and then we get upset or angry or depressed. That’s usually how it goes, but I’ve learned that life just does that to us sometimes. Life lets us down, so when it brings us up, we appreciate what we’ve missed on the way down. We appreciate the ride, we appreciate the feeling, we appreciate just being alive. Life does that; it brings us down, it disappoints us, but never forgets to bring us back up. And maybe when it takes a little longer, its because it’s waiting on us to do our PART.

My Life is a SUPER-DUPER-Roller Coaster! & am enjoyin the ride!
Uweeeee

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Wrapppp!

its a WRAPPPPPPPPP!!!! Horeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D


Hell yeah bebeh! FINAL Gadis Melayu-3 -DONE Smoothly :)
Being the Floor Manager *FM for Backsatge really drives me insane!
Have to jaga All the Finalist-Actors-Dancers-Timing-Props Haihhhhh
Standing & Yelling for 2 hours turns me into a real TARZAN-lah & a Super-Bitch back there.huhu
Sorry guys for being so garang & jerit2 ' STANDBY NOW! NOW! NOW!' juz doing my work :)

Alhamdullilah~ Praise to ALLAH for everything went well that nite.
Kudos to all the Team! 5 months suffering with hustle & MIGRAINE has come to an end fellas!
Tho my legs & throat hurts badly but am the MOST happy FM ever! Yeay! :D

Da' Rawkin GM-3 Team

Floor Manager Backstage in action.Grrrrrr
Da' Host Ashraf Muslim
Nasib Baek i Mix-Siam+Minang=Siamang? Agagaga! :P

X-Cited!

am EXCITED! BUT...naik Broga pon setengah mati , inikan pula Si Cantek ini?
Hump.Hit the gym phyza!!!!!like NOW!




Bole ke ni?

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

F! U.

OK,1st of all mind my words & the rest is go to hell.TQ.

Fark u! for being a Total Jerk!
Fark u! for being so KAMPONG!
Fark u! for being an IDIOT!
Fark u! for thinking like i care!
Fark u! for all u've done!
Fark u! for trying SO HARD to be cool!
Fark u! for being so fuken Selfish!
Fark u! for donno how to say THANK YOU!
Fark u! for being so ungrateful!
Fark u! for succeeded hurting me!
Fark u! for not knowing what ur' HEART is for!
Fark u! for all the lame attitude!
Fark u! for all the drama u created!
Fark u! for being u!
OMaiGOD! Juz FARK OFF! u horny-bastard.
FARK U ZILLIONZ TIMES U Ass****!
Huh!

True.




"When we least expect it, LIFE sets us challenge to set our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are NOT ready. The Challenge will NOT wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny."

-Paulo Coelho-



1

Oh Yeah bebeh!!!
killed 4 of them already! Feels soooooo dymn GOOD!
Now, 1 more to go! Juz one fuken more dorlene!
Oh Oh Ohhhh i cant wait till it END.FULLSTOP.FINISH!
Syukran!Syukran!Alhamdulillah.am Glad :)

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Phew~

-PMS cramps strikes today. Yeay! urghhh
-Editing *again???* Yeah. whole day inda no-mercy-freakin cold editing suite.
-2am inda morning finish editing episode 4! Yeayyyyy * one more fuken eps left! juz one moreeee
-2.10am walkin to car ALONE * dan kereta di tepi jalan sgt JAUH! am-scared-PMS cramps-Tired.Dang!
-Asked Abe guard accompany me to car he said "takpelah saye tgk dari sini" WTF? kalau ape2 jadi kat aku, ko leh lari tgk secepat mungkinkah dari situ? Hump. sgt tak gentle pliz.
-Fine, i walk alone. no biggie.
-Oh Dear, Black-Maria ALONE ditepi jalan.Erk? OK,am freaks-out looking at my spooky-no car-silent surrounding.Owwhhkehhh quickly ran to my car &&& Safely inda car! Thank YOU GOD! Pheww.
-Called Babadom to wait till i got home * ye, saye mmg penakot & being penakot is not a crime fellas.huhu.SO? i be it :)
-Pecut cam pelesit arrived home 2.30am * Thank GOD my house juz nearby~Everybody already in la la land.Sighs.kecuali my Babadom yg setia menunggu his spoiled-cranky-dotter. TQ Abah!
I LOVE U :)
-Shower+supper+& am off to dream land.

Phewww WUTTA DAY~ pinggang saye sumpah rase nak patah now & da' fuken PMS cramps really killin me. dammit.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Want.






i want sumone i can go to. sumone i can tell my secrets to. sumone who wont judge me for the mistakes i've made. for the mistakes i will continue to make. i want sumone who understands. i want sumone who hears, not juz listens. i want sumone who says good nite to me, and prays to GOD they get the chance to say good morning. i want sumone who knows my quirks. i want sumone who wipes my tears away. i want sumone who needs me. i want sumone who loves me.

i want.



LiFe.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

SAMA!

Saye nk buat pengumuman yg akan menyentapkan sesetengah individu & satu kaum itu.

Saya rasekan...*sayelah yg rase, korang tak rase korang punye pasal lah kan?*
SEMUA LELAKI KAT DUNIA NI SUKE BUAT BENDE2 YG BOLEH DIKATAKAN BONGOK & MEREKA SGT SELFISH & TAKKAN BERUBAH WALAUPON BULAN BENAR2 JATUH KERIBA OR KUCENG TUMBUH TANDUK SEKALIPON. THEY WILL REMAIN THE SAME SAMPAI BILA2.

PERKATAAN " Sumpah syg , i takkan buat lagi & i will never do it again-i dah berubah" itu semua sudah masok dalam muzium.PENIPU.PENIPU.PENIPU.

Betolah kate org2, mengharapkan seseorang akan berubah lepas sesuatu kejadian terjadi-memang tidak akan benar2 terjadi * like seriously dude ko nak berubah ke? mmg tak ah kan?*

Lepas tu kan, JANGANLAH SUKA SGT BERJANJI-sebab korang mmg takkan tepati punya.HUH penat cakap pasal jantan ni. Sudahlah.pegila mati semua.Tu je nak cakap arini.Sekian terima kaseh.






Psssttttt: Oh ye, Sorry kepada sesape yg terase & of coz * ayat klise* tak semua lelaki begitu KAN?

DONT!

OK,Dewan kawen dah gempak, Setting pelamin pon suwet-suwet, pengantinz somel, tetamu semua kelas-kelas Datuk-Datinz, Tan Sri-Puan Sriz-Menteriz2 yallz TETAPI????

Lagu JODOH-waliband & NOBODY-Wondergirls at a Wedding yg byk VVIP's??? How more stoopid can the band be-lah?*PENGSAN* Pesanan buat teman2 yg nk kawen & to myself, Sile Check ur' band song list b4 ur' wedding. adoi.

Buat senak perot je taw dgr all those *to me* as STOOPID SONGS!!!! 1st of all aku mmg benci lagu JODOH tu.Urgh TOLONGLAH. 2nd, lagu NOBODY tu mmg cute tapi sgt tidak sesuwai OK dgn tema wedding kamo yg sgt kelas itu. Sudah mencemar semua yg suweett-suweett di wedding kamo wahai anak VVVIP. Sgt rugi taw.Oklah mmg wedding kalian , saye ni menyebok je disitu tapi.... Oh well its ur call anyway kan? hummp.

Tapikan, kalau pasang lagu2 Chenta yg mendayu2 suweett-suweettt kan ke byk dlm donia ni. WHY WHYYYYYYY pilih lagu JODOH itu? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Ok, Sekian.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Surely do :)



Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

[Demi Lovato]
Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being
Someone big
We were so young then
We were too crazy
In love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Whoa whoa
Whoa whoa
Whoa whoa

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

2

Ah ah ahhhhhhhh lagi 2 je lagi!
lagi 2! lagi 2! lagi 2!
Cepatlah Pja! Cepatttttttttttt!
Skit je lagi ni! Despite of my un-stabilize health condition. Mak tak kesah dah.
Cepat abiskan pliz Pja pliz.
Then u'll be FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE frm the cage! & be in your New Home!

TAK SABARRRRRRnye sayeeeeeeeeeee!

Oh Tuhan, Kau permudahkanlah segala urusan kerjaku, agar aku dapat menyelesaikannye dgn CEPAT & lancar. AMIN! AMIN! AMIN!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

BODO.

SAKIT!!!! uwaaaaa Bulan Oktober sgt-sgt BAEK terhadap saye. Betol. Dari demam panas yg membakar ke batuk yg menyeksakan dada ke selsema yg menyesakkan idung hinggalah ke mulot yg pecah2 dek ulser & Cold sore! Bestkan? :D best sgttttt-semua dpt CASH! sapu abis.

Ni smlm dapat habuan baru lagi, tah macamana aku leh bagi 'Pak Kiyai-lah' SGT! urut kaki aku coz dia dtg nk ubatkan Mak aku la yg x reda2 sakit perot dah nk dekat 2 weeks balik dari Medan, Indonesia *dari Hospital sampai ke klinik tak ok2 gak*
Tetibe plak nk 'tgk2kan' aku katenye tah tersampok antu jembalang mane kut2 firasat sesatnye ituh. Can read people-Can see thing??? WTF.Podah! aku ni mmg jenis yg TAK PERCAYElah bende2 mengarut camni. ALLAH je tahu OK.

So, dia pon pila urut kaki aku. dan inilah yg aku dapat!. Hanjeng punye tukang penipu. Pak kiyai konon-Pak Kirai adelah. Menjahanamkan kaki aku! urghhhhhhhhhhh
dah lah sakit bertambah2 sakit lagi kaki aku dibuatnye. BODO taw. Humppp!!!

LEBAM PLiz! urghh!
Nasib baek seblah kanan tak birat sgt. !@(!*@*&#^&%~&2!!!!!

BODO!BODO!BODO!BODO!

Ah-So-Sweettttttttttttt!


Love the song & his CUTE Video clip!
How i wish someone cud juz sing this out-loud in front of me like he did. hehe
Sgt2 suwetttt OK. am in berangan mood-lah. Gheeee LISTEN guys!

Monday, October 18, 2010

Wish.

Oh! Kola!

Koala is NOT a bear.TAHU. Tapi aku mmg suke pggil menatang yg COMEL nk mampos ni Koala Bear jugak! Sebab mereka memang tersgt cute & sama seperti bear mainan. Bulu sejibik macam patong aku kt umah tu. Ishhh GERAM!

Mereka tido 20jam sehari-bangun-makan-tido balik-humm mcm ade persamaan? hehe

Comel! Comel! Comel!

Lempang kang baru taw!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Sujud.



Ku menatap dalam kelam
Tiada yang bisa ku lihat
Selain hanya nama-Mu ya Allah

Esok ataukah nanti
Ampuni semua salahku
Lindungi aku dari segala fitnah

Kau tempatku meminta
Kau beriku bahagia
Jadikan aku selamanya
Hamba-Mu yang slalu bertakwa

Ampuniku ya Allah
Yang sering melupakan-Mu
Saat Kau limpahkan karunia-Mu
Dalam sunyi aku bersujud

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Need.




Sometimes the one who seems the strongest is the one who is in the most need of a hug.Really.
+_+

HAHA!



i dont want you to play play with my liver??? ahhahaha! So funny...




Collapse.

Me down-flat-totally collapse with High-FEVER.
Yup, very High fever this time around. tangan aku dah boleh jadi seterika kain dah panasnye. hump @_@
Lama dah tak demam panas teruk camni rase cam nk mati pon ade.
Seratus tambah & air badak menjadi teman setia & of coz bergelen2 air aku minom nk buang panas badan. Haihhh dugaan2. I cannot afford to get sick like this. so many work awaits to be done in limited time.Selama ni sakit asyik tahan je,bila dah demam teruk camni terus tumbang!

Am prayin hard that tomorow this fever will go away so that i can get myself back to work. NEED to settle my work ASAP no choice given.

Oh Plz Tuhan, sembuhkanlah aku dari penyakit ni, byk benda & tanggungjawab yg perlu aku selesaikan & time is running out.Aku mohon padaMU-Amin.

No.More.







I used to RESPECT u for all
u've done & show me the diff perspective of life for not to give up.
BUT not anymore. U've change my point of view with a blink an eye. I HATE U.

Monday, October 11, 2010

F!




The only thing worse than a broken heart is that you'd give them a second chance, knowing that they'll do it again. Fark!

Sick ;s

am officially sick!*again?* Hump @_@

Right.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Secret?





T.o.r.n

PENAT!

Saye SGT PENAT. Really ;/ *SOB2*
Semua tugasan yg dicampakkan kepada diri ini sgt menguji kesabaran & ketahanan diri Phewuwuwuuu

Ni Baru balik from Karnival SuaRasa TV9 @ Pulau Warisan, Kuala Terengganu. 4 days there berkawan dengan terik mentari yg sgt melekit & membakar sgt tidak menyeronokkan. Ditugaskan Produce LIVE crossover 2mins every hour mmg x dpt nk gerak berjalan kemana2 coz every hour ade LIVE Humppp. Thank GOD! aku ade team yg best & sgt2 membantu Trimas SuSu & Emmytoz . TQ guys. TQ SO MUCH :)

Apart frm that, before am off to Terengganu 'Zombie' is my name. SEBAB? saye dah x mcm org normal keje, been staying all nite long to finish the editing is really put my patient up to the fuken test. Everynite back-to-back bersengkang mate stay-back @ the freakin-cold-ofiz is NOT fun thing at all guys.But wat todo? i hv to finish wat i've startedlah kan?

Plus! another special project keep on haunting me is da' special Raja Hajj with Maher Zain program. Hell yeah bebeh :) its Abe MAher Zain! Ya Yaaa... admits that am glad gotta chnace to see him in person Face-to-face but to follow him everywhere for this special programs is killn me. seriously.nasib baek Peqotiz setia membantu coz aku berselang seli buat editing XPDC at the same time. Crazie-crazie.

Now, thingkin bout tomorrow is already makes me SICK! & wanna KILL myself.Urghhh!
how i wish i cud juz leave everything & juz walk away-kidnap myself to any Island that i can be alone by the beaches & juz relaxing my mind-body&SOUL! humm..bila tu?

and am officially -Mizz PENAT.TQ.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Heart!



love's the funeral of hearts
an ode for cruelty
when angels cry blood
on flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the sun
Shining upon
The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail
He was the moon
Painting you
With it's glow so vulnerable and pale

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the wind, carrying in
All the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget
He was the fire, restless and wild
And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine
A prayer to a god who's deaf and blind
The last rites for souls on fire
Three little words and a question - why?

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

<3

3





2 Killed-done-finish-MATI.
Another 3 to bunoh-hancurkan-lumat-Habiskan saje!
Urgh! its suffering! dammit.

Oh c'mon Pija , u CAN DO IT!
*seperti biase kata-kata perangsang sedapkan hati* Sighs~

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Job.



My Job is Superb.Really.
It can turn me into a Zombie 24/7.Isn't that cool!
Oh i ♥ my job.i ♥ my Job.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Opps!

KESIAN. tu je word yg boleh keluar dr mulot mungilku ini *cewahh mungil keh? haha*
Ye! saye amat2 kesian dgn sekor kumbang ni\ yg feelin2 HOT! & GEMPAK. but realitinye Hadoo je yallz.

Perkenalan about a year ago dialam maya ni dah berlanjutan ke hari ini.
Been going out lepaking & such adelah 3-4 kali.huhu
nak dijadikan cerite, kumbang ni mmg out of my "suke' list lah but wutta hell kan? i was layan je lah. *yela tgh boring layankan saje* Kalau ikotkan mak x gemor sesgt le kuar dgn muke2 ala2 'Osama Bin Laden' ni.*no offence la pade kawan2ku yg dianugerahkan rupa paras begini. Bukan Benci cuma x gemar saje.

So, tis mamat feelin2 sgt COOL, gile tak? blajo kt US tu.*uhh like i care?* ade Bss sindri bla bla bla laa lah. He once said to me, he used to ONLY layan girls whenever he feels like it and usually the gals yg akan tergile berSMS + Call & yada yada with me.And i was like? erkk.. Wokeyyy mister, geddit same here wif me dorlene * abis tu ko hengat mak ade mase sgtlah kan nk melayan semua jejanz? bile mak sanggap & busan lah time tu ko jd mangse maks. ish bengap blaja je kt US*

Anyway, as days goes by, after the last so-called-'dating' tu. i was so dymn bz with my hectics world werkin & such. So, dont really bother to text him ka dating ka apa ka lah coz i know he will NOT do that coz vice-versalah-layan bile perlu aje-bak angan-angan Mat Jeninnye<<<<<----am fuken HOT guy k-my EGO is lg tinggi dr Gunung Everest tahu.So mmg tak ah aku nk text2 gals ni, dorang yg akan mai kt aku->>> beginilah prinsip idupnye. Very well with me coz i dunt give a fark about it at all :) am cool with that tho u sound like soooooo Kg.com.

So! nak dijadikan cerite-he he he *gelak dulu* "Tut Tut Tut" my cell phone x stop bunyik msg-WTF?
HA HA HA I MENANG TANPA BERTANDING! Yihaaaa padan muke ko. Cakap poyo cam good-good je at the end? jatuh gak Ego. cari sape? aku gak kan?OOpppssieee! haha ish ish ish kalau ye pon feelin2 mantopz-tak yah nk buat statement membunuh diri begitu coz i'll double it to u :)

haha lawak-lawak, now mak mmg dah malaz nk layan kepoyo-an mu ituh. tak kesahlah kalau aku tgh busan ke, aku tgh mood 'berhati Nabi' ke, mak dah malas nk layanz. pegilah mati ko.
Nak poyo dgn mak? ish geli lah. pi shuhhh shuhhh main jejauh :P

Well Mister, My imaginary friend thinks u hv serious mental problems :)

Dream?




I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

Snap!.


Since & 4ever Photography will ALWAYS be my baby!
LOVE takin picture everywhere i go already put me into this obsession :)
anything in front my eyes is my piece of art.
NO professional method tho, i juz SNAP!

R&R


Like a Virgin.

Beauty & The Beast.

If Looks cud KILL.

Oh Bulan!

Sexy.Biyotch.

Senja.

Senoritaz.

End.of.da.road?

u.up.above.



*Psst! Ma' Pix is Ma' property.COPY&PASTE are strictly HARAM.TQ :)*

Friday, October 1, 2010

Hump @_@

Xanax is a BAD drug, and should not be used unless you absolutely CANNOT cope with your current situation in life, or are suffering from EXTREME post-traumatic disorder...

It is a Benzodiazepine and MADLY addictive... It wears off every 6 hrs (unless you take the time release kind) and you will shake and have withdrawal symptoms when you dont keep on taking it...

Sooner than you know it, you will be addicted, even though you didnt ask for it or want to be...

You will be dependent on it quickly, you will sleep all of the time and your memory will be horrible, The drug gives you the same feeling as being drunk, so you will often say and do things you normally would not...

***Testimony***

I thought I was pregnant once while on Xanax, and I quit cold turkey, I was up for 4 days with absolutely NO sleep, I was shaking and not eating and my body was so tired but I was not...Sheer horror...Not a wink of sleep for that long, I ended up in the hospital because I did not know what I was going to do...

Hallucinations are common with this drug, I still struggle time and again with these...

I am now off of the drug, one year sober...Although my Dr gave them to me, it was still more than I bargained for...

I have terrifying panic attacks again, but I would rather suffer any day with them, than have to endure the effects of Xanax ever again...

Thanks, hope this helps you...


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Oh dear... no wonder.no wonder.sighs~ @_@

TAKOT!

Panadol is a commercial preparation of acetaminophen (paracetamol). It high a low therapeutic index, which means that toxic doses aren't too much more than therpeutic doses.

The liver normally metabolises the drug by producing enxymes that conjugate it - in essence join several molecules of it together. This is harmless and can be excreted by the body as normal.

However, if you take a toxic dose, the normal enzymes are working flat out to conjugate it but cannot keep up with the sheer volume you have taken - they are said to be saturated. So another group of enzymes take up the slack, called the mixed function oxidases. Great. However, they metabolise the drug into a toxic form called N-acetyl-p-benzoquinone imine.

So now your turning the drug into a toxic substance. In order to inactivate this toxic metabolite, you conjugate it with a chemical called glutathione. OK, so now now fine again. But glutathione reserves run out quite quickly.

So now you're getting a buildup of this toxic substance that your liver is creating. It starts to react with the cells in your body, especially in the liver and kidneys, killing them.

Acute paracetamol poisoning in common in the UK and the treatment is well established - gastric lavage to wash out the stomach to prevent more being absorbed followed by activated charcoal which binds to any remaining paracetamol. If the patient has only just taken the overdose you can give acetylcystine or methionine which helps to raise the glutathione levels to increase inactivation of the toxin.

However if more than 12 hours have elapsed since taking the overdose, the prognosis is not good at all. Early symptoms include nausea and vomiting. The liver damage occurs about a day or two after. Since the liver has hundreds of functions, the symptoms are vast, but can include damage to the brain due to buildup of ammonia, and bleeding internally due to lack of clotting factors. Severe liver damage is lethal in a matter of days.


Read more:
What does an overdose of panadol do to your liver? (Answers do not have to be serious or educated...) | Answerbag http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/108170#ixzz112E2OjNh


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OK *Fark! its totally disturbing reading all the facts.
Hump sumpah takot pliz &&& 100% scared but definitely no regrets tho.
Tak mo dah.tak mo dah.tak mo dah.Really.