-here we go!-
Why? :The DISGUSTING thang i threw away years back-MUNCUL kembali. WTF? & the worst part is-on my freakin birthday! WHY? urgh-u're NOT the present i want for my birthday.Oh! GOD!
History : The 'thang' disappeared juz like that 2 years back on Valentines Eve's without saying Sorry & Goodbye. No Fight-No-Shits- No drama. We were juz fine back then-SO IN LOVE i may say.*wek! nak muntahla plak* Out of suddent he ripped me off juz like that & Kantoi with a new gf. How Sweet & Nice of u part 1 :) - very well then.
The 'thang' hurts-me-badly inside-out. Took all of my courage to fights all the pain ALONE is the hardest things i ever faced in my life. I was so devastated- tears is my best friend :)
Thank U ALLAH i was being showered with LOVE & SUPPORT frm all my Family & Friends during that hard moment in my life. BIG THANK to my beloved Mommy for always there for me, that ALWAYS TRYIN her best to cheer me up when i was so down & also to u 'guys!' u know who u r syg!
So! i've move-on- heal my broken heart by making myself the BZiest lady on earth like there's no more tomorrow. Recovering proses isn't easy baybeh. Slowly i put back my pieces of broken heart back in place & i did succeed bring back 'ME!' into mylife! Yezz! Alhamdulillah :) i couldn't be more happier knowing that i am better off without YOU. Well, 2 years passed juz like that & am the all-new-strong-happy-crazie lady now. I've got lotsa my lovely frenzie that always behind my back whenever things go wrong-My Besties! My Gossip Gurlz! My NCTianz Biyatchez! My LOve Ones! u rawk my life! Meet new people that color my journey with joy-am so glad :) TQ SO MUCH :D - i felt so much better & no more crying lilte girl in me. I am doin juz fine UNTIL!
What? : 3 weeks back The 'thang' keep on buzzing me thru my cell-phone. Already know it was the ' thang' * why do i keep on calling him 'the thang?' becoz he doesn't deserve to be called human or animal at all-so i think 'the thang' would be juz ok for him. rite? wtr-* So! i was so annoyed & pissed & all the anger i threw away years ago suddenly come back in me with no reasons? dymn i hate to be in this situation again-i hate this feeling.urgh. Ok, very well than, i ignored all the sickening missed call-He trace me in FB plak thru my frend? Goshh-wutta heck that u want WHY? i mean WHY after two blady years?
At 1st, i was SO-DYMN-MAD! Yes i am. I dunno HOW-WHERE to put my feelings to, i dunno how to express my anger that i've kept away frm me years ago? Nak marah-dah basi? Nak maki-tak taw nak maki cara terhebat? urghh! it was a tottaly-RIMAS! So, after so much thinking & adviced frm my Mommy & Besties- i choosed to be professional lady here. i lettin 'the thing' 1% back into mylife in professional way tho i HATE to do that. Seriously, holds back myself for NOT being so EMO & CURSING agains him is SO HARDDDDDDDD to do. Coz being the real me i am SO NOT an Angelic kinda lady when it comes to this kinda issue. Tahan MARAH + BENCI mmg amat SAKIT my frend but i am so proud of myself that i actually acting cool & ignorance is truly Bliss.
Oh, yah didn't i told ya that 'the thing' is da' freakin shameless-ungrateful-brainless-idiotz-ever? Oh & the worst part is- he dont even want to say SORRY in a proper way to me & my famly. That is SO SWEETTT of u part 2 :). Its okaaa- it doesn't bite me anymore. i am truly HEARTLESS to u anyway. Furthermore u're not that important in my life either. So why bother aight? :)
What NOW? :
- *Sighs* S.A.B.A.R is always be my bestfriend :) so i'll continue berSABAR.
- TQ SO MUCH for the PAIN u gave me. if not becoz of that i will still be the silly me :)
- Keep on ignoring all his nonsense & such on my wall / on my phone / in my inbox / bla la la
- Be professional indeed :)
- SMILE with pride :D
- Tone down my Anger & Emo (Oh, plis-plis-plis go away. My blood pressure high enuff for me)
- I am the HEARTLESS & SELFISH person @ the moment. Dun know-Dun care. Pegila mati ko. All i know now is, am enjoyin my precious life with lotsa fun here & there & u're juz a JIJIK lalatz yg dtg tak diundang. Ouch! thats a lil' harsh over there. So WHAT?
- ALHAMDULILLAH X 10000000000000000000000000 timessssssss
- AMINNNNNNNNNN X 1000000000000000000000000 timessssssss
- I never knew KARMA taste like Chocolate! its yummy & i like it :D
LASTLY :-)
I would never wish bad things-But I don't wish you well
Does it hurt?
To know I'll never be there?
Bet it sucks To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who choose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
NEVER AGAIN :)
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