Yesterday me and my family celebrated Hari Raya Haji at home as usual with all the same ‘clise ‘ raya food-lah and all the chaotic+yelling + screaming from my ‘so-called-satanic’ beloved cousins.Aiyoh! bagai nak gile melayan sekor-sekor! All in all we are having great Raya Haji celebrations though it’s not as BIG as Aidilfitri.
I woke up at 10am today, shower+breakfast+clean-up the house+ cooked for my grandma and then am going out at 12.30pm to meet up Omara at Damansara Perdana. WHY? BECAUSE HE GOT ME A ‘SKINNY BITCH’ book freshly from
I am all excited to ‘kutip’ the books from him. So I kidnap my little cousin ‘Cheddar’ with me and I drove over to Friendster Café @ D’sara Perdana. We arrived – I meet him – ‘hi-hi la.la.la.’ – Thanked him a thousand times for getting the book for me (he really go around Kota Singa itu and cari the book for me people,owh, u don’t have to? Err.. no-no! u HAVE to cari! Hee :D) TQ SO MUCH!
So, I balik rumah with a ear to ear BIG SMILE. :D open the plastic bag and guess what??? not one Skinny Bitch Book, its TWO!!! Yes! T-W-O = TWO!!! In the box and with hard cover somemore? OMG! Am so happy gila-lah! Terloncat-loncat like berok dapat pisang. Lucky me! Lucky me!
Why am I so excited about this book?
1. Because the book written by Rory Freedman-a former agent for Ford Models and Kim barnouin – a former model. And they both have successfully counseled models, actors, athlete and other professionals using this “SKINNY BITCH” method baby!
2. I’ve been trying to find this book quite sometimes though. MPH pon tinggal 1 je itu pon kat
3. Despites my lake of time to go Kinokuniya KLCC and always lupa to singgah Borders The Curve to find the book, am just end up browsing the web page only and thinking of buying the book via eBay?
4. It’s a HOT stuff for my mind & myself improvement too.( as am so jealous of all the Skinny Bitch out there!)
5. And YES of course! I wanna be gorgeous Skinny Bitch-lah!
So, I’ve got my Skinny Bitch & Skinny Bitch in the Kitch to accompany me during my leave-days-lah (though am still reading “Looking for Mr. Goodbunny” by Kathleen O’Reilly which I found very interesting!)
it’s ok, I’ll have the whole week for me ber-malas-malasan dirumah with all my books! Yihuu!
Last words, TQ! TQ! TQ! Oh! TQ! Mr. Omara Sharif for allowing me to trouble u every time ( Tular, sape suh tanye i nak ape eveytime u go overseas?) but i think that’s what “Phyzha” are for anyway? Err… right? Peace! *Wink!*
My next most wanted books are = Elegance + The Flirt + Innocence by Kathleen Tessaro!
MAHU! MAHU! MAHU!
“Let the world know U as U are,
NOT as U THINK U should be,
because sooner or later, IF U are POSING,
U will forget the POSE, and then WHERE ARE U?”
Bahasa Jawanya berbunyi = JUZ BE YOUR SELF-Lah
“…it’s ok, though we are over,we can still remain Friend Forever right? Am still here whenever u need me, still LOVE u but its juz that we are not meant to be together…” – skrip lapuk yang selalu kita dengar.betol tak? Sungguh klise nak mampos and believe me it’s all BULLSHIT.
Hanya manusia-manusia yang teguh jiwanya bak konkrit yang bina KLCC tu je yang mampu menjadi SAHABAT (promote program jap.haha) after breakoff.
Hanjeng & Kucing? FF? Memang tak ah.
Jika korang merasakan korang seorang ala-ala nostalgic bak Puteri Gunung Ledang yang degil nak mampos (macam aku), Pendendam yang end-up mati jadi Pontianak macam si Sundal Malam tu (Macam aku jugak) dan sungguh nekad nak jadi ‘Pembunuh Bersiri’ (macam aku lagi), dipersilakan TEGAS ‘Me-DELETE-kan’ si mangkok hanyun anak haruan tu dalam hard-disc otaq korang macam Jeniffer Lopez buat dalam ENOUGH tanpa mengambil masa bertahun pon. Just make it clear-cut FULL STOP-lah
Cupid Sang Adam yang aku temui keluar masuk carta hidup aku hanyalah diciptakan untuk hanya menjadi ‘Kenangan’ saja, walaupon pernah bertepuk-bertampar, rapat dan intim. Idealisma tentang “satu hari MUNGKIN dia si mangkuk hayun itu akan berubah dan aku akan bersama dia kembali” adalah satu perasaan dan fasa yang amat bongok dan sangat membahayakan diri sendiri jika masih ber-FRIEND FOREVER ni .Sebab itu HARAPAN.
Kerana dalam banyak-banyak perkara
Bagi aku tak de maknenye ko nak jadi Friend Forever after all the shit u’ve done to me and all the hurts u make me felt before, sebabnya satu jelah at the end aku balik yang akan terduduk sakit hati if ko buat palat lagi kepada diriku yang sunggoh cumil dan best ini.
Trust me, FRIEND FOREVER will never work out with your Ex’s. its a TOTAL NO-NO.
Been there done that fellas. All I gain is ‘high- blood-pressure‘every time.
Pookie-kan? .*sighs!*
So it is better u off alone and let bygone be bygone, just Forgive him-lah for wutever shit he/she had done and then blah-lah kan? Hapekejadahnye ko nak 'kawan BAIK selama-lamanye' lagi dengan orang yang dah buat ko sakit hati?
For me END means 3F = FULLSTOP.FINISH.FAREWELL sucker!
Simple as that baybeh. :D
Don’t be afraid to admit when you know you are wrong.
It is not a sign of weakness,
but shows character and responsibility.
Others will respect you for that.
Always do the right things,
even when everyone does as they please with no consideration for the feelings of others.
Never compromise your values and beliefs,
even if it means risking ridicule and rejection.
Be true to yourself.
Live your own life and don’t allow others to decide what is best for you
If you do, you will be unhappy because you’re untrue to yourself.
Refuse to run away from the things that scare you.
Confront these situations and overcome your fears so that you may grow as a person.
Don’t compare yourself to others.
You are unique special being and therefore you should express your individuality.
Happiness keeps u Sweet, Trials keep u Strong,
Sorrow keeps u Human , Failure Keeps u Humble,
Success keeps u Glowing,
But only God Keeps u Going
Memilih-Dipilih-Terpilih
Mengapa memilih utk tidak terpilih
Padehal kau tau ko mampu untuk dipilih
Mungkin pemilih sengaje enggan memilih
Agar ko terase mmg ko takkan dipilih?
Berjuta kali kata hati ingin dipilih!
Tetapi berjuta kali juga ko gagal terpilih
Apakah yg pemilih mahukan utk memilih?
Kesal kata hati hampa lagi tidak terpilih…
Sudah disuruh kata hati berusaha untk terpilih
Angan kata hati musnah bilamana tidak dipilih
Mengapa dimainkan perasaan kata hati?
Apa lagi pengeras yg harus dipilih utuk menjanjikan terpilih?
Terkadang yang terpilih tidak WAJAR berada dipentas dipilih!
Apa kurangnya lagi untuk dipilih menjadi terpilih???
Adakah memilih untuk terpilih ada lengok tarian yang harus dipilih?
Jikalau begitu busuk lorong utk terpilih…
sedarkan aku supaya tidak terus ingin dipilih!
Kata hati teramat sgt ingin dipilih menjadi yg terpilih!
Kata hati sudah terlalu letih untuk memilih pemilih
Kata hati mungkin jua memilih untuk tidak ingin terpilih lagi?
Kata hati mungkin sudah tidak percayakan omongan pemilih…
Memilih…Dipilih…Terpilih…
Antara nyata- benar dan khayalan.
Dimana kepastian pilihan?
Hanya DIA yang mampu melakukannya
Bukan Engkau..Bukan Aku..Bukan sesiapa jua!!!
Agape~
Phyzh_@111
In my 26 years (Yes, TUA itu mengejar aku!) In this world. I’ve laughed and I’ve cried, I’ve tried and I’ve fallen, I’ve received and I’ve lost, I’ve lived and I’ve loved. Yet, the one fucking thang that keeps me constantly ‘GILA’ with confusion is the Fucking ‘L’ word! Yes, I’ve come to find that LOVE, the most overly EXHAUSTED word in the English language, agree with me? (I don’t really care whether u agree or not tho :P)
As a child, my mind fed off of Disney movies and storybook ending the “HAPPILY-EVER-AFTER” thang-lah. I dreamed of the day my ‘Pince Charming’ (taller than I am, ala-ala Takeshi and handsome, of coz lah
Akan tetapi fantasi selalunya sukar menjadi kenyataan, biarpun kalau ada, boleh dihitung dengan jari. Yet, the TUA I get, the more I find that I’ve been blessed ( I supposed u could call it that) with the heart that is quickly to fall in love. I’ve learned that there really is a time when u find someone who seems to share the same hopes and dreams as u are- someone to whom u give ur heart. And that is how I’ve learned the PAIN of a BROKEN HEART. (ah, aku benci part ni)
I must admit, for “CHENTA_ANAK_HANJENG” a.k.a puppy-love the pain at the time seems never-ending. But soon, u learnt to PICK UP THE PIECES OF YOUR SHATTERED HEART, Gam-kan elok-elok balik, (guna Gam Gajah) into almost what your HEART was before (But then again, I’ve found that ONCE broken, it’s NEVER quite the same.Duh?). And then we became more careful and mengidap syndrome ‘Miss-Very-Berhati-Hati-Takot-Terkena-lagi’ about which ‘Romeos’ or ‘Abang Arjuna’ u tend to fall for.Adoi.
Oi! Letih Oi!
U know what? I’ve got a lot of life to live, and love yet to give. Though I could be practical and search for the sensible-Sempoi-Matured-Funny-Crazie guy. I’ll still turn my head when my heart starts to beat faster than a drum roll of my ‘Abg METALLICA’ played. I’m still waiting for my Prince Charming. He’s out there somewhere… kotz?
(But then again, where the FUCK are u? Stop playin all this game will ya? Just quickly snatch me over and ran away with your white horse and make me HAPPY-EVER_AFTER-lah! Dammit).
Mane kau? mane? mane? *Sighs!*
Dan seperti biasa jugalah, aku memang failed bab-bab directions ni. Haha! Lucky depa taw. Sampai je disambut Kak Mala the Utusan representative I supposed? And all other Utusan’s staff. Than meeting with their Bosses, Hi-tea skit, borak-borak, tour Utusan jap, bla-bla-bla and FINALLY photo shoot! Phew!
Bebudak GM ni amik le gambar sekor-sekor, ‘Click! Sane Click! Sini’ adus buta mata aku dek flash studio yang maha besar ni. Nak amik gambar pon payah benor aku nengok bebudak ni? ‘...Tangan tu kena hala ke depan , muke kena dongak skit, lutut tu ke kiri skit, badan jgn kebelakang sgt, mate pandang sharp kat saye, jgn senyum beriye-iye sgt mata awak Nampak kedut…’ (Like WTF?)bebel Abang Azahar, Senior Photographer kat Utusan tu sampai naik hilang suara dok bagi arahan. Adus. Nak amik gambar pon banyak protokolnye ye?.Direct SCP(Single Camera Production) or MCP(Multi Camera Production) pon tak se-detail gini gamaknye. Aku ingatkan senang je cam aku selalu pose sesuke hati dengan CyberShot aku tu?
Anyway, disebabkan agak ‘bertahun’ jugaklah bebudak ni amik gambar tak abis-abis lagi.
Ah, Lemau!
Kebosanan melanda diriku lantas, aku pon keluarkanlah camera maha-sakti aku dan inilah yang jadi…
Model Tangga keluaran IKEAh
Tangga IKEAh ini terbukti kukuh!
Sabby Sabadi kecewa Karman Hakim buat onar lagi!
Tapi Karman Hakim dan MeMok tetap dengan kenyataan
' kami hanya abg & adik terhangkat aje' (pegila mati!)
Kak Ezzah yang Sempoi bersama anak buahnya yang best & baek hati. (ahaha!gile tak baek?!)
Dah habis.tu je.Ehheheee :D
So,Moral of the story? Cik phyzha x yah lah lagi ikut pi photoshoot coz dia akan buat studio tu macam dia punye studio sindri.
One.BORED.DayOne whole day menatap Pavvy (My laptop btw).Sanggap sangat satu hari kat opiz (well actually setengah hari je coz masok opiz jam 12 ). Sepatutnye aku MC je coz mate still membengkak bak kodok dek 'ketumbit ker ketumbut ke?' wutever the names is-lah. Tapi Doktor yang berhati mulia kt bawah opiz ni kate tak teruk sgt. Oh, ya! aku lupa dia nak suruh aku jangkitkan sakit mate aku ni kt satu opiz agaknye.huh. ape-ape je lah.
Sampai opiz around 12pm, Check on my next shooting schedule -DONE,Online FB, Chatting @ YM, ngumpat-ngumpat jap with Dian (my team mate in SAHABAT ) pastu turun Cafe beli air, singgah Bro Asrien (Ex-RC TV3) Art Exhibitions kat Lobi Sri Pentas.Amazed by his work! tapi tak dak duit nak beli.later kot. Back in opiz, depan Pavvy lagi?? uhh, FB,YM,read other Blogs, surfing, download lagu,bla..bla..bla..
Around 4pm, Check on Dian's Offline on Ep.8 BERSIH.(yeay! dah nak abis dah!) everything was ok.She actually good in editing tho (ah, kembang la tuh cet!) Then, Farah ajak lepak Cafe 'sesi keluh-kesah' bla.bla.bla.then BALIK.
BOLEY?
Ini la dia kalau dah selalu sgt keluar shooting bile tak kuar BORING kat opiz.
