Sujud.

Ku menatap dalam kelam
Tiada yang bisa ku lihat
Selain hanya nama-Mu ya Allah

Esok ataukah nanti
Ampuni semua salahku
Lindungi aku dari segala fitnah

Kau tempatku meminta
Kau beriku bahagia
Jadikan aku selamanya
Hamba-Mu yang slalu bertakwa

Ampuniku ya Allah
Yang sering melupakan-Mu
Saat Kau limpahkan karunia-Mu
Dalam sunyi aku bersujud

Just?

Just because somebody flirts with you, Doesn’t mean they like you.

Just because somebody likes you, doesn’t mean they wanna go out with you.

Just because they wanna go out with you, Doesn’t mean they love you.

Just because somebody loves you, Doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you.

Because people lie! things change. boyfriends cheat! & “Bestfriends” ditch!

And there are always gonna be those people who would kill to see you fall.

Need.

Sometimes the one who seems the strongest is the one who is in the most need of a hug.Really.

+_+

HAHA!

i dont want you to play play with my liver??? ahhahaha! So funny...

Collapse.

Me down-flat-totally collapse with High-FEVER.

Yup, very High fever this time around. tangan aku dah boleh jadi seterika kain dah panasnye. hump @_@

Lama dah tak demam panas teruk camni rase cam nk mati pon ade.

Seratus tambah & air badak menjadi teman setia & of coz bergelen2 air aku minom nk buang panas badan. Haihhh dugaan2. I cannot afford to get sick like this. so many work awaits to be done in limited time.Selama ni sakit asyik tahan je,bila dah demam teruk camni terus tumbang!

Am prayin hard that tomorow this fever will go away so that i can get myself back to work. NEED to settle my work ASAP no choice given.

Oh Plz Tuhan, sembuhkanlah aku dari penyakit ni, byk benda & tanggungjawab yg perlu aku selesaikan & time is running out.Aku mohon padaMU-Amin.

No.More.

I used to RESPECT u for all u've done & show me the diff perspective of life for not to give up.

BUT not anymore. U've change my point of view with a blink an eye. I HATE U.

F!

The only thing worse than a broken heart is that you'd give them a second chance, knowing that they'll do it again. Fark!

Sick ;s

am officially sick!*again?* Hump @_@

Right.

Secret?

T.o.r.n

PENAT!

Saye SGT PENAT. Really ;/ *SOB2*

Semua tugasan yg dicampakkan kepada diri ini sgt menguji kesabaran & ketahanan diri Phewuwuwuuu

Ni Baru balik from Karnival SuaRasa TV9 @ Pulau Warisan, Kuala Terengganu. 4 days there berkawan dengan terik mentari yg sgt melekit & membakar sgt tidak menyeronokkan. Ditugaskan Produce LIVE crossover 2mins every hour mmg x dpt nk gerak berjalan kemana2 coz every hour ade LIVE Humppp. Thank GOD! aku ade team yg best & sgt2 membantu Trimas SuSu & Emmytoz . TQ guys. TQ SO MUCH :)

Apart frm that, before am off to Terengganu 'Zombie' is my name. SEBAB? saye dah x mcm org normal keje, been staying all nite long to finish the editing is really put my patient up to the fuken test. Everynite back-to-back bersengkang mate stay-back @ the freakin-cold-ofiz is NOT fun thing at all guys.But wat todo? i hv to finish wat i've startedlah kan?

Plus! another special project keep on haunting me is da' special Raja Hajj with Maher Zain program. Hell yeah bebeh :) its Abe MAher Zain! Ya Yaaa... admits that am glad gotta chnace to see him in person Face-to-face but to follow him everywhere for this special programs is killn me. seriously.nasib baek Peqotiz setia membantu coz aku berselang seli buat editing XPDC at the same time. Crazie-crazie.

Now, thingkin bout tomorrow is already makes me SICK! & wanna KILL myself.Urghhh!

how i wish i cud juz leave everything & juz walk away-kidnap myself to any Island that i can be alone by the beaches & juz relaxing my mind-body&SOUL! humm..bila tu?

and am officially -Mizz PENAT.TQ.

Heart!

love's the funeral of hearts
an ode for cruelty
when angels cry blood
on flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the sun
Shining upon
The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail
He was the moon
Painting you
With it's glow so vulnerable and pale

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the wind, carrying in
All the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget
He was the fire, restless and wild
And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine
A prayer to a god who's deaf and blind
The last rites for souls on fire
Three little words and a question - why?

Love's the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

<3

3

2 Killed-done-finish-MATI.

Another 3 to bunoh-hancurkan-lumat-Habiskan saje!

Urgh! its suffering! dammit.

Oh c'mon Pija , u CAN DO IT!

*seperti biase kata-kata perangsang sedapkan hati* Sighs~

Job.

My Job is Superb.Really.
It can turn me into a Zombie 24/7.Isn't that cool!
Oh i ♥ my job.i ♥ my Job.

Opps!

KESIAN. tu je word yg boleh keluar dr mulot mungilku ini *cewahh mungil keh? haha*

Ye! saye amat2 kesian dgn sekor kumbang ni\ yg feelin2 HOT! & GEMPAK. but realitinye Hadoo je yallz.

Perkenalan about a year ago dialam maya ni dah berlanjutan ke hari ini.

Been going out lepaking & such adelah 3-4 kali.huhu

nak dijadikan cerite, kumbang ni mmg out of my "suke' list lah but wutta hell kan? i was layan je lah. *yela tgh boring layankan saje* Kalau ikotkan mak x gemor sesgt le kuar dgn muke2 ala2 'Osama Bin Laden' ni.*no offence la pade kawan2ku yg dianugerahkan rupa paras begini. Bukan Benci cuma x gemar saje.

So, tis mamat feelin2 sgt COOL, gile tak? blajo kt US tu.*uhh like i care?* ade Bss sindri bla bla bla laa lah. He once said to me, he used to ONLY layan girls whenever he feels like it and usually the gals yg akan tergile berSMS + Call & yada yada with me.And i was like? erkk.. Wokeyyy mister, geddit same here wif me dorlene * abis tu ko hengat mak ade mase sgtlah kan nk melayan semua jejanz? bile mak sanggap & busan lah time tu ko jd mangse maks. ish bengap blaja je kt US*

Anyway, as days goes by, after the last so-called-'dating' tu. i was so dymn bz with my hectics world werkin & such. So, dont really bother to text him ka dating ka apa ka lah coz i know he will NOT do that coz vice-versalah-layan bile perlu aje-bak angan-angan Mat Jeninnye<<<<<----am fuken HOT guy k-my EGO is lg tinggi dr Gunung Everest tahu.So mmg tak ah aku nk text2 gals ni, dorang yg akan mai kt aku->>> beginilah prinsip idupnye. Very well with me coz i dunt give a fark about it at all :) am cool with that tho u sound like soooooo Kg.com.

So! nak dijadikan cerite-he he he *gelak dulu* "Tut Tut Tut" my cell phone x stop bunyik msg-WTF?

HA HA HA I MENANG TANPA BERTANDING! Yihaaaa padan muke ko. Cakap poyo cam good-good je at the end? jatuh gak Ego. cari sape? aku gak kan?OOpppssieee! haha ish ish ish kalau ye pon feelin2 mantopz-tak yah nk buat statement membunuh diri begitu coz i'll double it to u :)

haha lawak-lawak, now mak mmg dah malaz nk layan kepoyo-an mu ituh. tak kesahlah kalau aku tgh busan ke, aku tgh mood 'berhati Nabi' ke, mak dah malas nk layanz. pegilah mati ko.

Nak poyo dgn mak? ish geli lah. pi shuhhh shuhhh main jejauh :P

Well Mister, My imaginary friend thinks u hv serious mental problems :)

Dream?

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

Snap!.

Since & 4ever Photography will ALWAYS be my baby!

LOVE takin picture everywhere i go already put me into this obsession :)

anything in front my eyes is my piece of art.

NO professional method tho, i juz SNAP!

R&R

Like a Virgin.

Beauty & The Beast.

If Looks cud KILL.

Oh Bulan!

Sexy.Biyotch.

Senja.

Senoritaz.

End.of.da.road?

u.up.above.

*Psst! Ma' Pix is Ma' property.COPY&PASTE are strictly HARAM.TQ :)*

Hump @_@

Xanax is a BAD drug, and should not be used unless you absolutely CANNOT cope with your current situation in life, or are suffering from EXTREME post-traumatic disorder...

It is a Benzodiazepine and MADLY addictive... It wears off every 6 hrs (unless you take the time release kind) and you will shake and have withdrawal symptoms when you dont keep on taking it...

Sooner than you know it, you will be addicted, even though you didnt ask for it or want to be...

You will be dependent on it quickly, you will sleep all of the time and your memory will be horrible, The drug gives you the same feeling as being drunk, so you will often say and do things you normally would not...

***Testimony***

I thought I was pregnant once while on Xanax, and I quit cold turkey, I was up for 4 days with absolutely NO sleep, I was shaking and not eating and my body was so tired but I was not...Sheer horror...Not a wink of sleep for that long, I ended up in the hospital because I did not know what I was going to do...

Hallucinations are common with this drug, I still struggle time and again with these...

I am now off of the drug, one year sober...Although my Dr gave them to me, it was still more than I bargained for...

I have terrifying panic attacks again, but I would rather suffer any day with them, than have to endure the effects of Xanax ever again...

Thanks, hope this helps you...

Source: http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_does_xanax_do_to_your_body

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Oh dear... no wonder.no wonder.sighs~ @_@

TAKOT!

Panadol is a commercial preparation of acetaminophen (paracetamol). It high a low therapeutic index, which means that toxic doses aren't too much more than therpeutic doses.

The liver normally metabolises the drug by producing enxymes that conjugate it - in essence join several molecules of it together. This is harmless and can be excreted by the body as normal.

However, if you take a toxic dose, the normal enzymes are working flat out to conjugate it but cannot keep up with the sheer volume you have taken - they are said to be saturated. So another group of enzymes take up the slack, called the mixed function oxidases. Great. However, they metabolise the drug into a toxic form called N-acetyl-p-benzoquinone imine.

So now your turning the drug into a toxic substance. In order to inactivate this toxic metabolite, you conjugate it with a chemical called glutathione. OK, so now now fine again. But glutathione reserves run out quite quickly.

So now you're getting a buildup of this toxic substance that your liver is creating. It starts to react with the cells in your body, especially in the liver and kidneys, killing them.

Acute paracetamol poisoning in common in the UK and the treatment is well established - gastric lavage to wash out the stomach to prevent more being absorbed followed by activated charcoal which binds to any remaining paracetamol. If the patient has only just taken the overdose you can give acetylcystine or methionine which helps to raise the glutathione levels to increase inactivation of the toxin.

However if more than 12 hours have elapsed since taking the overdose, the prognosis is not good at all. Early symptoms include nausea and vomiting. The liver damage occurs about a day or two after. Since the liver has hundreds of functions, the symptoms are vast, but can include damage to the brain due to buildup of ammonia, and bleeding internally due to lack of clotting factors. Severe liver damage is lethal in a matter of days.

Read more: What does an overdose of panadol do to your liver? (Answers do not have to be serious or educated...) | Answerbag http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/108170#ixzz112E2OjNh

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OK *Fark! its totally disturbing reading all the facts.

Hump sumpah takot pliz &&& 100% scared but definitely no regrets tho.

Tak mo dah.tak mo dah.tak mo dah.Really.

Kawen!

Aku nk pasang & kalau boleh nyanyi lagu ni time aku kawen nanti.

Oh Oh Ohh so suwettttt makes me wanna cry now <3

Sekali.

Hidup kita ni SEKALI je & tak pernah diJANJIkan hari esok akan benar-benar menjelma.

So? kalau tergerak rase hati TERsuka ke, TERjatuh Cinta ke, TERsayang ke JUZ let it OUT.

Jadi dipersilakanlah ucapkan kata hati kamu kepada si dia sementara masih ada waktu.

Tak yah segan, buang malu selamber je bgtau. Regardless he/she terima ke tak blakang citer janji dah lepas dr dada kamu & TRUST me u'll feel so much better :) tak rugi ape2 pon.

*****

Cik Segan : Awak, saye suke awaklah.Tak kesahlah awak nk ingat ape.i juz feel so comfortable around u :)

Abe Manis : me too . lets juz keep it that way for now :)

* haha kan ke best boleh cakap terus.Yang lain ALLAH punye keje tak gitu? hehe

Past.

Our History will keep on haunting us wherever we go.

Nak!

Saye.Sgt.Mahu.INI.Sekarang.

LOST.

Yup.That's the best word to describe what i am at the moment.
Seriously am LOSING MY MIND now. Sighs~~
Lotsa thing keep on bugging me lately & i cant figure out HOW in hell to solve it. i juz cant.

Dealing with 'myself' is the hardest thing to do at the moment. Been struggling with my 'dark-side' is killin me. TRYIN so hard to kick it away from my life,but NOT that easy.Not that easy.

My "Hell witta Fluorescent Light" wont leave me alone every second. They don't understand what I've been thru.

Wanna SCREAM out LOUD.REALLY.
Wanna Jump off the building & END everything.
Wanna Slap & KILL someone real BAD.
Wanna GO AWAY frm all this SHITZ that make me SICK.
Seriously i juz FED-UP.NUMB.TOTAL.


TQ for those who want to listen to all my shitz.
TQ also for the ignorance.
True, no one can HELP me, BUT me & HIM up above. Yes i know.

Tryin.

I can't get you out of the sunlight
I can't get you out of the rain
I can't get you back to that one time
Cause you and me are still recovering

So let's just, try to cool it down
The fighting, this feeling of flames
So let's try to slow it down
We crash when we race

Oh this is not the way that it shouldn't
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again
No, I never wanna fall apart,
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes, I know we've said alot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not too late to take them back
So, before you say you're gonna go...
I should probably let you know
That I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

See I look for you in the morning
Cause that's what my mind always calls
And I can't wait to get to the evening
Cause that's when I want you the most

So let's try to cool it down
The fighting, this feeling of flames
So let's try to slow it down
We crash when we race

Oh this is not the way that it shouldn't
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again
No, I never wanna fall apart,
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes, I know we've said alot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not too late to take them back
So, before you say you're gonna go...
I should probably let you know
That I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

But I know it now...
I wish I would've known before
How good we were...
Or is it too late to come back
Or is it's really over,
If it's really over...

But this is not the way that it shouldn't
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again
No, I never wanna fall apart,
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes, I know we've said alot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not too late to take them back
So, before you say you're gonna go...
I should probably let you know
That I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

urh!

KUSUT.BERAT.TQ.

ala so comel :)

X-Ceptionz.

When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry.And curse at the wind.He broke his own heart and I watched.As he tried to reassemble it.And my momma swore that.She would never let herself forget.And that was the day that I promised.I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.But darling, you are the only exception.Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul.That love never lasts.And we've got to find other ways to make it alone.Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this.Keeping a comfortable distance.And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness.Because none of it was ever worth the risk.But you are the only exception.I've got a tight grip on reality.But I can't let go of what's in front of me here.I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up.Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream.

oh,

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

LAZY-lah

Oppsie! it has been a while i dont jot anything here~Sighs~

So Many things to do

So Many happened

So Many gossiping here + there

BUT!

am juz TOO LAZY to write anything-lah huhu.

Later-later-lah k :P